God, Why? - Trusting Him During Unknown Times

On Thursday I had quite the eventful day.

It started earlier that morning at about 8am, I started having tiny bitty contractions I thought might’ve been Braxton hicks, but by 1pm it was becoming full blown early labor contraction!

We ended up calling my midwife plus the team, and when they got there they thought I would be much further along (and so did I,) but it turned out nothing in my body was even ready for labor…

The contractions however kept up, and got to a point they told me they were as strong as if I was in further ACTIVE labor, but again, with no other physical progress.

It was very discouraging, and challenging.

After a bit of a scare with baby boys heart rate, the contractions finally subsided at 12am that next morning.

I was EXHAUSTED.

And I just wondered, “God, why?”

All this to say, I’ve been spending these past days recovering as my midwife told me my body needed some time to recover from that stress.

This whole experience truly has made me realize that when I feel weak, there is only ONE PLACE and ONE PERSON we can TRULY rely on for strength and endurance. That’s the Lord.

Not only that, but the only one who knew the why of that situation, was the Lord. And not only did He know the why it was happening, but it was part of His good plans.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

In those moments we feel so weak or are asking “why?” We must be diligent and mindful of where we are directing our questions of why.

Not only that, but we must trust that if we get no answer, He is still good, and has a purpose for everything!

Though that false labor was very trying on me, and I felt like it was all a bit pointless at first, I only now realize how grateful I was for it!

I got to see how my team worked and took care of me during it all, and also was able to see how Tanner and I handled it with God.

That experience truly showed me God would take care of me and was looking out for me, Tanner, and especially baby, and that settled something in me, giving me a peace I didn’t realize I was lacking about all of this.

But GOD knew I needed to experience that to trust Him more and have that peace!

Again, no matter what trials are thrown at you, and you aren’t sure why or if you will make it through, remember to look to the one and ONLY one place that can give you the endurance and peace through it.

The Lord.

When you call on Him, HE WILL ANSWER! Even if it’s not how or when we expect. And sometimes that answer is simply “know that I have you.”

And that’s it.

I remember asking God the day before to help me trust Him with this labor and my baby, and though it was trying, HE DID ANSWER!

Just not how I expected.

It’s a beautiful thing to rely on our creator and be able to trust that no matter what our circumstances look like, or what we think, He is in control, and we only need to let go and lean on Him.

So whatever you are walking through or asking “God, why?” about, remember;

He is good all the time, and He has a plan for you!